I have a “nurse voice.”
It’s something I’ve noticed more and more that I adopt when at work. I can be out at the nurse’s station angry about something and I’m loud when I’m angry. The second I walk into my patient’s room the smile goes on and my voice changes.
You may recognize this voice. It’s higher pitched, soft and non-threatening, sounds like I’m smiling (I am), and full of subtle (and not so subtle) reassurance.
I’m not sure what made me notice the difference. Probably an instance where I was indeed angry at the nurse’s station and then switched to sweet nurse mode when I entered the room. It’s reflexive though, something I do. It has a tendency to calm fears, diffuse anger, and make people smile back.
Listen to your nurse the next time she walks into the room to see if she pitches her voice a certain way. Calming, it’s my calming “I care for you” voice.
It made me realize that I’m certain things to certain people. (Watch out! Here comes a deep moment. You’ve been warned)
I wonder who I am at times. That sounds weird, I know, but it’s true. I put on faces at times.
My patients see a certain CC, my family sees a certain CC, my coworkers see a certain CC, and so on and so forth.
All of those parts of me are aspects of me, a facet of the real me, but I don’t feel like I can be all of me with any one person.
I’m not sure anyone would know how to handle me if they saw it!
I think we only reveal parts of ourselves for this very reason. A worry that person can’t handle the honest you. I mean, my patients don’t care if my day has been rough. They’re expecting quality service with a smile. I tend to deliver a product based on what I believe the person wants. Support, care, an ear, etc.
Ultimately, it means I don’t always know how to be myself in one piece. I’m sure everyone can relate to that fact.
But the nurse voice? I’ve been doing that so long I’m not sure I can stop.
Nothing says “it’ll all be okay” like that voice, right?
Just like I’ll eventually find a way to be wholly myself with someone, allow the voice to settle you.
This is Nurse C (projecting a sense of continued calm even when I don’t feel it), signing out.